Wednesday, April 15, 2009
caught in no where.
omg, i just felt like im like always the middle person, trying to help other to solve their problems. and at times, i feel like im stuck in no where. there are things that you need to say, yet you cant. and the feeling is really terrible. sometimes i really feel bad saying things to other, afraid that im regarded as badmouthing/backstabbing. different people, different perspective. you'll never know what others think in their mind, yeahs? plenty to bad experience in the past makes it difficult for me to actually put on trust on others, and i know i need to build back the trust on people and yet, it takes time....
out for the whole afternoon and was only home past midnight. tiring day out, and i tried my very best to keep my eyes opened. met up with huiqing for her phone and did some window shopping. things are pretty, but im super broke. trained down to bishan to meet up with gladys&shermaine. had our dinner at mos, and i had a hard time struggling to give shermaine salvation bs. i nvr gave one before, and hence i panic, afraid that i might say the wrong things. did my small prayer and went on. phew, things went well. (:
trained down to cp after that to collect my pay. aw, my eye candy wasnt around! haven seen him for like donkey years.hahahs! walked to ps then and window shopped again. met up with xiong&welson and went to visit wynne for her grandma just passed away. pay our respect, chitchatted and home cuz i got camp the next day.
attending the wake brings me back to 1year back, when my grandpa actually left us. when wynne actually told us how the grandma look like, it make me think of how grandpa looks like back then. it was totally different from his picture, from the last time we met him. thought alot on my way home. regretting for my past actions, flashing back the memories of grandpa.
grandpa,
i regretted for my procrastination, if i hadn't said i was busy i would had visit you more often. i know how much you missed us, how you wish that we're just by your side, but we were living in our own world, forgetting about you. i remembered how you happy you were whenever you see us, i would nvr forget the smile on your face. yet i cant forget how you teared before leaving us. i know how much you wished you could talk to us, but you cant. grandpa, i missed you and i love you!
i know these might be too late, but i know from up there, he can read it...
camp for the next three days, goodbye!
out for the whole afternoon and was only home past midnight. tiring day out, and i tried my very best to keep my eyes opened. met up with huiqing for her phone and did some window shopping. things are pretty, but im super broke. trained down to bishan to meet up with gladys&shermaine. had our dinner at mos, and i had a hard time struggling to give shermaine salvation bs. i nvr gave one before, and hence i panic, afraid that i might say the wrong things. did my small prayer and went on. phew, things went well. (:
trained down to cp after that to collect my pay. aw, my eye candy wasnt around! haven seen him for like donkey years.hahahs! walked to ps then and window shopped again. met up with xiong&welson and went to visit wynne for her grandma just passed away. pay our respect, chitchatted and home cuz i got camp the next day.
attending the wake brings me back to 1year back, when my grandpa actually left us. when wynne actually told us how the grandma look like, it make me think of how grandpa looks like back then. it was totally different from his picture, from the last time we met him. thought alot on my way home. regretting for my past actions, flashing back the memories of grandpa.
grandpa,
i regretted for my procrastination, if i hadn't said i was busy i would had visit you more often. i know how much you missed us, how you wish that we're just by your side, but we were living in our own world, forgetting about you. i remembered how you happy you were whenever you see us, i would nvr forget the smile on your face. yet i cant forget how you teared before leaving us. i know how much you wished you could talk to us, but you cant. grandpa, i missed you and i love you!
i know these might be too late, but i know from up there, he can read it...
camp for the next three days, goodbye!
i stopped by at, 12:45 AM.
