Wednesday, April 30, 2008
normal lesson today. totally sucks . didnt actually want to go . yet i went . practiced oral in class . but end up not doing well still . read the wrong words , stutter , spoke some english . i wont be surprised if my result comes out be lousy . rushed home after school to get the damn money for o'levels . what a waste of time . paid before oral and my mum was so afraid that i'll lose the stupid money .
holiday tmr and i guess i'll just stay at home to rot and think . no mood to step out of the damn house im living in . feel like nothing but my dad's puppet . a f.b who is trying to rule my life and took all my freedom away . if this is how he gonna treat me , its just the matter of time when i'll disappear from this family . shall move out of the house asap during my poly life . i'll live with my purple buddy and nvr come back . i dont care how difficult life's gonna be cuz im really sick and tired of this house .
i really dont know what i've done and i do know that a sorry cant solve the problem . i didnt know things will spread this far . i swear and promised i didnt tell other people . i told you right after i heard it . yes , i did gossip , but you do too . and i really swear that i told you everything . i dont know what others have told you , cuz its just what you think . if you choose to believe others , then no matter how much i say , would not change your thinking . cuz you've chose to believe in other . i know tongues are wagging , but why did you choose to end our friendship ?
no matter what happens , i stood by your side and you have chosen to leave me . i know there's nothing i could do to gain back your trust . i dont want to remain like this forever . you just dont want to believe me . is our friendship really that weak ?
holiday tmr and i guess i'll just stay at home to rot and think . no mood to step out of the damn house im living in . feel like nothing but my dad's puppet . a f.b who is trying to rule my life and took all my freedom away . if this is how he gonna treat me , its just the matter of time when i'll disappear from this family . shall move out of the house asap during my poly life . i'll live with my purple buddy and nvr come back . i dont care how difficult life's gonna be cuz im really sick and tired of this house .
i really dont know what i've done and i do know that a sorry cant solve the problem . i didnt know things will spread this far . i swear and promised i didnt tell other people . i told you right after i heard it . yes , i did gossip , but you do too . and i really swear that i told you everything . i dont know what others have told you , cuz its just what you think . if you choose to believe others , then no matter how much i say , would not change your thinking . cuz you've chose to believe in other . i know tongues are wagging , but why did you choose to end our friendship ?
no matter what happens , i stood by your side and you have chosen to leave me . i know there's nothing i could do to gain back your trust . i dont want to remain like this forever . you just dont want to believe me . is our friendship really that weak ?
i stopped by at, 8:48 PM.
