Tuesday, April 29, 2008

fail fail fail . i might fail my chinese paper although i think i wont . sound so contradicting . dont have the mood write at all . especially during paper 1 . dont remember a single crap i wrote except for my name and qn number . ohh F . paper 2 was worse . cant understand a single thing from the passage . just simply copy and paste without much thinking . listening compre also didnt do well . wasnt concentrating in listening . almost end up with 2 blanks .

ohh crap , my mind keep think of other thing . cant concentrate on anything at all . feeling so terrible , its so indescribable . had this similar feeling years back when things are going so wrong with my godmother's family and mine as well . at that time , i couldnt do anything or talk to anyone . all i could do was to cry alone , but now i wont . i know it wont help at all . but i seriously at a loss .

things happened because of me . im sorry , but i really dont know what to do now . i dont have any mood to study . o'levels approaching so what , just fail the papers lahh , i dont give a damn for studies at all . but cann someone just tell me what to do ?!

i dont know if its me , even if its not , im still very sorry for everything .

i nvr knew telling you everything i heard wont make this happen .

even if you hate me , i still wont blame you . so sorry .

i really wish to go back to the past ..

& everything will be backed to normal .

i stopped by at, 8:45 PM.